My first 8k

Um I guess the headline already indicated a lot but guys I'm so excited I made 8k yesterday! uargh!

this was last thursday, soo slow but still close to 6k!

not much faster, but 8k! Whoop!

On thursday morning I already got really close to my 6k aim and finally - I don't know how - I got the 8k. (I know some people won't be able to understand my excitement about these 8k, but try to run 8k when your gut feels like somebody is trying to light a fire and you're only able to even move because of pain killer)

I'm so happy I'm finally feeling better (even though this has only been a really short amount of time of feeling numb, dizzy, sleepy and all of that) and it makes me even happier to see my own progress not only in running but in handling my illness. Everyday is better than the day before. I only have been diagnosed for about two months now but I already realized so many beautiful things Horst taught me: Never let your happiness be controlled by something you can't control. This advise isn't always easy - trust me, I for sure know it isn't at all - but it is so important. Do yourself a favor and try to smile more often, a smile might light up your whole day. And of course don't let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace, they will never know how you feel exactly. You should know what's best for you, not them, nobody does know you better than you do (well in my case with the exception of my best friend). Most of the time people around you won't understand your journey. They don't need to, it's not for them. It's yours. Only yours. 

Back to the Game

Horst's unpredictability really starts to wear me out. Don't get me wrong on this. I'm not complaining. Not at all actually because today I felt so much better than yesterday. So surprising turn into the right direction for the first time. Drum roll!

proudly wearing purple

So I decided to go for a short 5k run this morning. Well short needs to be redefined in this case, at least for me. Felt more like a marathon. At least to me. Not so much for my friend who was so nice to accompany me. He kept telling me this was rather a walk than a run, but duh, i leaped the 5k hurdle today! 

Also I started wearing my IBD/Colon Cancer Ribbon when I'm going for a run. It's weird, I mean I know I'm still running on my own, or like today, trying to make up the leeway between me and my running partner. Anyway, wearing my ribbon draws me back to those people suffering the day I'm able to go out for a run. So this one is for you. Also, I learned to be proud of Horst. I'm not going to hide him or anything, he makes me to who I am and hopefully brings me towards being a better person. Maybe even tomorrow. Oh and today is May 1st, and this means IBD Awareness Month starts today in Australia. I think it's so good to know they even have a whole month for raising awareness for IBD and other invisible illnesses. Raising awareness is so important, especially to us people affected. This is also why I am so so excited for May, 19th which is World IBD Day. So be sure     to get pumped for that one, go out, wear purple and help spreading awareness! 

I also have had amazing food today, yes guys, back to the game, back to my unconditional love for food! This is also why I decided to have a new section on my blog about Horst's Favorite Recipes talking about my favorite recipes when it comes to food which me and Horst like. Yes, they actually do exist! So I'm going to work on that in the near future. So just some pictures of awesome food for closing tonight, sleep well my honey wells! (certainly being in a good mood due to a surprisingly good day)

Mango-Banana-Smoothie

Selfmade Tomato-Bruschetta